hey blog, long time no post
a lot has been going on lately but nothing that important and its maybe very late but
EID MUBARAK READERS!!!
i went to singapore for holiday and i watched il divo TWICE
they are simply PHENOMENAL!!!
this post is weird so goodnight readers!
i knew it all along bro but dont worry and if that is your reason then i think you dont know me that well.
i dont care if you like her, i dont. it is everybody’s right to like someone, even someone not single
i respect what youre trying to do, to not hurt my relationship and yourself but you are just wrong
you were wrong when you support me to go back with her and now you leave her and you leave me because of this thing too. i dont know youre just an angel or just a demon
i dont care bro, i give her up just for you to come back. i give up everything just for the return of our friendship like it used to be.
so what im asking you now is, please return here and lets put everything behind us
my post before the last sahur will be like a memoir of what used to happen almost every weekend some months ago.
yeah, almost every weekend my brother sleep at my house and usually our awkward conversation happens after midnight and even if hes not having a sleep over at my house, we always keep in touch chatting AWKWARD AND WEIRD DIALOG OF COURSE
Z: pim yuk
A: gila apa lo? ngapain?
Z: ayolah, banci aja baru dandan jam sgini
sometimes its just serious
A: gw suka ma si itu tuh
Z: hah?
A: tp gw g enak, kan dia punya cowok. gw let go deh
Z: yah, masih banyak ikan d laut
A: bantuin mancing ya
Z: i got your back homies
sometimes our criminal minds are working so we tricked someone to answer our serious question
Z: lo mau g balikan ma adri?
AZ: yaaah
Z: mumpung dia g dikamar nih
*im right there sitting and listening to the phone*
Z: tuh kan ipodnya aja muter “if ever youre in my arms again”
AZ:(still not answering)
A: HALO, SAYA KEMBALI
Z: tuh kan keburu balik
A: bukannya gw disini dari tadi?
and sometimes its just pure full of friendship
A: keren miniatur ring lo, pinjem buat motret dong
Z: Sewa
A: yaudah brapa? BILANG BILANG
Z: g lah buat lo bradeeeer
yeah, ridiculous dialogs and sometimes its just weird things
like playing with our wrestling action figures together like we are in kindergarten
thats all for tonight, i am still remembering the times and im kinda happy remembering it but remembering it deeper makes me a little bit sad so my emotion are swingin’ like a jazz tune right now
i know some post ago i have post a thank you to you but i will make one cause i know that this is probably the end of our friendship
thank you brother for all the nice advice with such sweet words that you told me in my times of need. you are a man, a real man in my opinion cause you can encourage me to be strong like you when i am down by my problems or by a bad day. i know that what youre doing is for my good sake but you dont realize that its killing, EVERY SECOND OF IT. i want to thank you for you patience every time you accompany me somewhere, for your patience when i ignored you at my own house, for your patience BEING MY BESTEST FRIEND. i love you like my own brother and i dont know if you feel the same way but i just want you to ask yourself something
IS FRIENDSHIP IMPORTANT?
i know deep inside you feel that it is important so i am asking you one more thing
BE HONEST, BE TRUE TO YOUR HEART
well, i dont want to bother or disturbed so anymore
thank you brother, for being my runaway place all this time
THANK YOU
you saved my life..countless times, even though i’ve lost myself. you never gave up on me, even when i was shouting at you and saying horrible, terrible things. you are always there for me. we talk about anything, and i tell you everything. because i know no matter what, you are always there for me, and not for what this has done to me. you see past that, even though when i look in the mirror it’s all i can see. you tell me what needs to be said, because you have the balls to say it. you know i hate it, but love you because you are helping me. you have more than anyone else. you know when you push people away, only to see who will fight back and who will walk away? you never walked away. you’re a better fighter than me, because otherwise i wouldn’t be getting better. i wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for you, my beautiful best friend. i love you, and i’m so glad you love me.
Thanks Z, for always there for me :) I know you don’t know how i feel about you or maybe you don’t care about it because we always arguing about friendship right? but thanks for being my bestfriend and my brother ( even though you don’t want to be my bestfriend or even my brother, but that what i feel about you) so thanks
selenaz kagomez
i know that azka wrote this on behalf on herself but thi s is what i feel too. i change some words up there though.
i read some dialog and i dont know why, my emotion burst out. BURST OUT
like i wanna cry but on the other side there is rage and anger that wanna come out from my deepest heart
i went to fast breaking with the social class at PI today and after magrib, we eat at domino’s pizza and went to poins square for KARAOKE!!!!!!!!!!!
i sang: best i ever had by vertical horizon then the next song was the man who cant be moved by the script
those 2 songs: DAMN, emotional burst
have you ever think that i am vulnerable?
not as vulnerable as when somebody hears the word but i am kinda vulnerable
why, I, the one that knows you better have to feel this
losing in a hard way
why? because i’m a guy? but why a guy cant have a bestfriend?
your idealism are kinda wrong and i MUST straighten that up cause i dont want to see you destroy yourself FURTHER
so, i was chosen to be in a business competition and my team was with ilham and dipo and looks like we are losing.
one of our school team(platinum) is winning the competition and i am suppose to be happy about them winning but as a matter of fact, I’m not that happy, why?
i found some dirty hand inside and my own personal problem makes me cant enjoy their win and i feel that out mentor kinda sided for them even though she said she wasn’t siding with them and side with us too but everybody can see that she is damn lying.
for me, losing is not a big deal but losing to some cheats are hurtful enough but im not talking about platinum cause after all, even i cheated a little bit
but overall, you guys have made it and congrats
this is my team, TEAM ALPHA
team alpha and platinum featuring some of lazuardi team
